Master Cleanse: Day 3

June 19, 2008: Day 3

8:45 am
So, forget what I said yesterday about not smelling myself. I stink. I don’t think I am going to go anywhere today! Holy Moly. I had some really odd dreams last night. I won’t detail them. I just haven’t been remembering many dreams for the last couple months, so this is a good thing. Last night I was researching what to do after I get off this cleanse. I started thinking about food for the first time. I am definitely thinking of fruit and vegetables. I am going to need to switch that around, lately I have eaten more fruit than veggies. I hope that I don’t go back to the diet that got me this weight, though. I never really liked fast food, but that was what I relied on when I was too lazy to cook. I do have to admit that I love carbs. There is nothing like a good pasta. I am picky about my food. I am unwilling to eat really bad food. I mean, if I am going to put calories in my body, they better be good, right? Okay, so I lied. I have eaten a lot of bad food in my life. But when you are hungry, lazy, and poor what else are you supposed to do? Make food? Laziness, remember? Go out to a sit-down restaurant? That takes money. So, you settle for fast food. I will say this: my weight gain started when I started eating, and actually liking the nastiness of McDonalds. I lived in a very small town, and the only options were McDs and Arbys. The only times I have ever eaten at Arbys was in that town. I was extremely grateful to move back to the city. I had so many options. I then went to my favorite 3 or 4 places, and ate my favorite items- which were not the greatest food healthwise. But because I had not been able to eat at those places while I was in the small town, I overdid it. Now that I moved to another city that does not have those fast food places, I have been forcing myself to eat healthy. I have done fine, but the weight was not coming off, so I figured it was because of my past unhealthy eating habits.
Last night my kidneys started hurting. It is a pain that I have dealt with for a while, so it is nothing new. But I thought I should let you all know about it. They say that this is normal, so I will trust in that.

I did the nasty SWF (not the swf some of you may be thinking- it is the salt water flush- geez what kind of guy do you think I am?). Once again, I got to about three fourths of a cup left, and the gag reflux kicked in. Maybe that is how big my stomach is. Anything more that quickly sends it into rejection mode. So, that is why if I take a few breaths and slowly finish it off, I then have few problems. When I say few problems, I mean that it is still nasty, but at least I can get the whole thing down.

Today’s weight: 248

1:30 pm
I guess I don’t stink as bad now. Then again, I did take a shower- a long shower. I think it is funny, if I hear a commercial on TV for food and I am in the kitchen making the lemonade concoction, I feel as if I have cheated. When I walk away from the kitchen, my stomach is full, so I must have eaten something. Then I realize that it feels like I am salivating for real food while consuming the drink.

10:30 pm
Not much has changed. I was just watching a movie, and they were talking about eating a cookie. Oh my how I want to eat a cookie. Many people’s comments are in line with this. They also say that cravings go away with the next morning’s flush. Gee, I wonder why that happens. You would think nothing would occur drinking nasty salt water.