Master Cleanse: Day 4

June 20, 2008: Day 4

8:00 am
Last night I decided to take the tea at an earlier time. I ended up waking up at 6:30. It felt good to wake up so early. I have been beating myself up for sleeping in so often. I used to be able to wake up at 6 every day, without an alarm clock. Then I became lazy. I am excited- hopefully this will stick. Especially because on Sunday I will have to be gone at 9, and not be able to use the restroom for an hour. So I need to get this stuff out of the way before then.

There is something, though, about not wanting to drink that nasty potion each morning that makes you want to say, “I quit.” But then when you are able to get it down, you start being okay with it. It leaves a nasty taste in your mouth, and you can still taste it on your lips for some time afterward. By the time you use the restroom in a half hour to an hour, you start to feel bloated with water. I am happy to say that the salt retention only lasts a couple hours.

Today, I woke up and I started feeling hungry. My fingers were a little numb. I thought, briefly, that I should eat something. Of course I rejected that thought. I am finally seeing some progress. I will not go into the details, but there was some semi-solid waste that was released. I haven’t eaten anything solid in 3 and a half days now. So, I know that something is happening.

Today’s weight: 247

11:00 pm
So, today has been a good day. I did not have many cravings for a while. I had a book club meeting to go to in the evening. They had snacks there. I was not tempted to eat then. When I came home, I totally felt like I wanted to eat something. It wasn’t that I wanted food, I decided that I just wanted another taste in my mouth. I drank the wonderful lemonade concoction instead. Not quite what I wanted, but it will have to do for another week to two weeks. I value my health more than a slight taste difference, which I would regret later. So, to save myself the anguish of beating myself up over giving in to temptation, I stuck to what I said I would do. I also did not want to rationalize what I did, because I have rationalized too often in my life. This was a good thing for me. I am learning to trust myself again. Life is good, even though I may not be able to partake in the goodness of food for a little bit.